12.20.2008

I give you ...

...Drumzies! Drum cozies for your Rock Band Drum Console!




My pal Megan wanted to get her man a set of noise reducing covers for their rock band drum console. She is a knitter and decided it would be really cool to make him a set for Christmas. But she searched and searched and could not find a pattern for such a thing. So she called me up and asked for my help finding the perfect pattern. Alas, I came up empty, but pledged to create the perfect pattern. I do not own a game system of any sort and have never played Rock Band in my life. ::GASP!:: But with some reconnaissance trips to Best Buy and some creative secret meeting with Megan we accomplished our mission and they work great!!!

Drumzies are best made out of a thick, lofty wool--I used Brown Sheep Lamb's Pride Bulky--so that the drumming sound is absorbed. Other lofty yarns will surely work, just be mindful of gauge and dimensions.



You can buy the Drumzies Pattern now at my Ravelry Shop! Since this is a new pattern and has not been test knit more than once, please do not hesitate to report pattern errata to me at knitaliciousgrrl@gmail.com. Please put "Drumzies Errata" in the subject line!

11.04.2008

... oh good, I can breathe now.

Thank you thank you thank you thank you! Colorado went blue. Udall won. Obama won. 48 was shot down. I can't ask for much more.

I am speechless now, but tomorrow ...

10.22.2008

Our Diagnosis Story

The Back Story
My father was diagnosed with type 1 diabetes in 1955 at the age of 12. He was very sick at diagnosis and spent 3 weeks in the hospital, he lost about 30% of his body weight. Shortly after diagnosis, my father was told he would not live to see 21. He was afraid to buy a nice pair of shoes because he didn't want to "waste them". Because I was raised by a person with type 1, my parents were always very watchful for symptoms in me, since they knew diabetes could have been passed on. They always watched for symptoms of thirst, excessive urination, etc. I never presented with these symptoms but picked up on them right away when my daughter did in the summer of 2002.

Six months before diagnosis, when Samantha was three years old, I noticed she was drinking and peeing more and she had more accidents (this was after being successfully potty trained). I actually had her tested for diabetes at the pediatrician's office because she was having so many accidents and I thought maybe she was developing diabetes (they wrote it off to difficulties with potty training, her urine was negative for glucose and ketones). I am convinced these were actually early symptoms of diabetes as her beta cell function was starting to decline.

The Deal
Fast forward to June of 2002, just 2 weeks after Samantha's fourth birthday. Samantha is now peeing constantly, having accidents at school daily (sometimes multiple times), drinking constantly and of course, I'm following the pediatrician's advice of withholding water after 7 pm to avoid night time accidents. In an effort to get her refocused on using the bathroom as soon as she felt the urge to go, I made a deal with her that if she could go a whole week without an accident at school I would buy her a Barbie Dream House, something she really wanted. But day after day she continued to have accidents and would get very upset about them because she felt that she couldn't control it. And water ... the poor kid needed water so badly that one night she threw herself down on the floor and pitched a fit for water! This was a child who had never before in her entire life pitched a fit over anything. It was during this "fit" that it occurred to me that this time it had to be diabetes.

Sticky Pee
I called my dad (who at the age of 59 was miraculously still alive) and asked him for his advice. After asking many questions about her symptoms, he told me, "there's no way she has diabetes, she'd be a lot sicker than she is." Of course he was thinking back to when he was diagnosed 47 years earlier. But, he said that he would let us use his meter to test her blood sugar when he returned home the following day (he was away on a trip at this time). That night I let her sleep in bed with me and gave her as much water as she wanted. I dreamed all night about her having diabetes, I just knew in my gut that she had diabetes. It was a very helpless feeling because I was convinced something was wrong with her, and I was convinced that I knew what was wrong. But I was doubting myself because the person in my life who knew the most about diabetes didn't think I was right. I was so worried that something bad was going to happen to her before she could be diagnosed. In the middle of the night that night she woke up to pee and had to dash to make it to the potty just 15 feet away from the bed. She didn't quite make it in time and peed a little bit on the bathroom floor. We were both so tired, so I threw a towel over the pee and decided to clean it up in the morning.The next morning we woke up and I went to clean the floor and the towel was literally stuck to the floor, like it had been glued down. I finally got the towel up and it was like someone had spilled soda on the floor, it was tacky and sticky, like there was a lot of sugar in her urine. At this point I was convinced I was right about the diabetes, regardless of what my dad thought.

The Very Friendly Meter
That afternoon at around 5 pm, my dad returned from his trip and Samantha and I met him at his house to use his meter. The first test said "HI". Hmmmm. Hi? Really? These things greet you? We had no clue what this meant because my dad had never seen a reading like this before. So we tested again. Again the result was "HI". Three tests later, we still had nothing but "HI", what a friendly meter! My dad figured the meter was broken. He tested himself and it worked fine; tested me, no problems; tested my mom, totally fine. So, we deduced that "HI" meant her blood glucose was too high for the meter to read (I later looked it up on the web and found we were right). At this point my dad finally agreed with me. He was forced to accept that his granddaughter, whom he loves more than just about anything in this world, had the same disease that he had lived with for most of his life. I called my ex-husband, Samantha's father, and told him we'd have to meet at the peditrician's sometime the following morning and that I was certain Sam had diabetes. That night I took my dad's meter home and tested Samantha throughout the night. I'm not sure what I thought it would achieve, since we weren't getting actual readings, but it still made me feel better.

Dr. Dan
The following morning, June 4, 2002, I called the pediatrician's office to schedule an appointment. The woman who answered the phone told me they were booked and I'd have to wait 2 days to be seen. I told her what was going on, that my daughter most likely had diabetes and that she had glucose levels too high to register on a meter. She told me they still could not see Samantha that day and I'd have to wait. I told her, in admittedly not the nicest tone, to put me on hold, go find a doctor or nurse and tell them about my daughter's blood glucose readings and then come back and tell me if they still were going to ask us to wait to be seen. After holding for about 3 minutes, she returned and what do ya know, they were suddenly able to see us at 10 am that very same day! They had to squeeze us in with a different pediatrician than the one we normally see, but we were seeing someone and that's all I cared about. As it turns out the doctor she saw, Dr. Dan, has 4 children of his own and three of them have type 1. He was an amazingly sympathetic person and so great with Samantha. I explained her symptoms, the family history, and the blood glucose readings and he said, "Well, I can pretty much guaranty that she has diabetes, but let's do a couple of tests to make sure." They checked her urine and then next thing I knew he was telling us we had to be at the Barbara Davis Center at noon.

The Barbara Davis Center
We are very fortunate to live in a state that is home to one of the best diabetes clinics in the nation. I actually participated in research studies at the Barbara Davis Center when I was a young child. Now I found myself as an adult making the familiar trip downtown so that my daughter could begin her new life with diabetes. On our way we stopped at Burger King for lunch, the kid was starved and admittedly so were we. My parents joined us for the appointment at the Barbara Davis Center and within the hour I was giving Samantha her very first shot of Novolog. There was no way someone else was going to give her that shot. I was scared to death to put that needle in my child, but she was more scared and I was not going to let her go through it alone. She survived that first shot and all the subsequent shots that followed over the years. Her HbA1c at diagnosis was 8.5, which is actually pretty good for someone newly diagnosed. I have no idea what her actual glucose level was, I guess I should ask the endocrinologist about that one day, but her ketones were large.

The Barbie Dream House
We were fortunate. We caught it very, very early. Samantha had only lost about 10% of her body weight. Of course I felt awful after all of this because I had been withholding water from my kid, which she really needed to help flush the sugar and ketones. Needless to say, the first day after our Barbara Davis Center training was over, I bought her that Barbie Dream House that I had previously promised if she stopped having accidents . At this point it was obvious that her accidents were beyond her control and were a symptom of a much larger problem and they all but disappeared once she started on insulin. I am so glad I knew what to look for and that I insisted she be seen immediately by the pediatrician. I have heard so many diagnosis stories from other parents of children with diabetes and in most cases these kids have ended up on death's door, in intensive care, fighting to stay alive. That could have just as easily been Samantha had I not known what to look for. If I can recognize the symptoms and put 2 and 2 together, why can't more pediatricians? With the prevalence of type 1 diabetes being what it is in America today (41 new children diagnosed every day), why is it that pediatricians either don't know the symptoms or don't take them more seriously? This I will never understand.

8.08.2008

how can you not adore this boy?



Nick Jonas has announced his campaign to raise awareness about type 1 diabetes after partnering with Bayer Diabetes Care!

My husband and I took my daughter and a friend (both of them have type 1 diabetes) to the Jonas Brothers concert last month. We not only enjoyed the show but were so moved to see someone so young take an interest in getting the word out about something so personal.

So Thank You Nick!!! You are an inspiration to so many kids and the type 1 diabetes community thanks you for putting a face to this disease. (And let's face it, it's a darn cute face!)

7.27.2008

... Girl Needs a Hat

I am ever so slightly addicted to this show called Wonderfalls that debuted on Fox in 2004. Only 4 episodes aired before the show was canceled, but a DVD with the entire first season (13 episodes) was released. It is a standard at our house, my daughter and I love it. It becomes apparent after watching the first half of the season that there was a knitter (and possibly crocheter) amongst the crew, as the most wonderful knitted pieces made cameos in the show here and there. One of my favorites was the hat Jaye wore in two episodes, Totem Mole and Caged Bird, the 12th & 13th episodes. My thumbs were busy pressing the rewind and pause buttons on my DVD remote from trying to figure out which yarn might have been used in the original hat. It at first appeared to be made of recycled silk, but I wasn't sure, the texture seemed thicker and loftier. But I could not figure out just which yarn was used. A while back I had cast on for the Unbiased bag with recycled silk alternating with Noro Silk Garden every two rows, but the project had been hibernating for a while. When trying to come up with yarn ideas for the hat it occurred to me that the yarns I used for Unbiased might work quite well for this hat if held together and I think it comes pretty close to the original from the show. The more I look at the scenes from these episodes the more I am wondering if Manos del Uruguay's 100% wool might look good also, with some tweaking of gauge of course.

So without further ado, I give you ....

Girl Needs a Hat


Gauge: 3 sts and 4 rows over 1”

Needles:
US Size 11 DPNs

Sizes:
S (M, L) - Finished measurements: 19"(21", 23"). For a tighter fit measure your head then subtract 1-2 inches.

Yarn:

Mango Moon Recycled Silk

Noro Silk Garden in Coordinating color





Ear Flaps:
Ear flaps are knit as below for Medium and Large sizes. If making the small hat, you may choose to make slightly smaller flaps by repeating rows 1 &2 six times instead of seven, leaving you with 15 sts for each flap.

With size 11 needles and one strand of each yarn held together CO 3 stitches.

Row 1: Purl

Row 2: kfb, knit to last st. kfb

Repeat rows 1 &2 seven more times (17 sts.)

Purl one more row.
Break yarn and leave flap on DPN


Repeat above for second flap.


Hat Body:

Using new DPN cast on 3(4, 5) sts. , then knit across all 15(17, 17) sts of the first flap (RS facing out). CO an additional 13(14, 19) sts, then knit across all 15(17, 17) sts of second flap (RS facing out). CO 3(4, 5) more sts.

You will now have 49(56, 63) sts total; distribute evenly over DPNs.
Place Marker (if needed) and join in the round, being careful not to twist work.

Knit in stockinette stitch (knit every round) for 3 ½ inches. Begin decreases in crown.


Crown:

Work decrease rows as follows
:
Row 1 (Dec): *k5(6, 7), k2tog*, repeat from * to * to end. 42(49, 56) sts
Rows 2 and 3: knit

Row 4 (Dec): *k4(5, 6), k2tog*, repeat from *to* to end. 35(42, 49) sts

Row 5 and 6: knit

Row 7 (Dec): *k3(4, 5), k2tog*, repeat from *to* to end. 28(35, 42) sts

Row 8 and 9: knit

Row 10 (Dec): *k2(3, 4), k2tog*, repeat from *to* to end. 21(28, 35) sts

Row 11: knit

Row 12 (Dec):*k1(2,3), k2tog*, repeat from *to* to end. 14(21, 28) sts

Row 13: knit

Row 14 (Dec): For small only skip to instructions for row 18. For medium and large:*k(1,2), k2tog*, repeat from *to* to end. (14, 21) sts

Row 15: knit
Row 16 (Dec): For medium only skip to instructions for row 18. For large only:*k1, k2tog*, repeat from *to* to end. 14 sts
Row 17: knit

Row 18: k2tog, repeat to end. 7 sts all sizes


Break yarn leaving 6 " tail, pull tail through remaining 7 sts. and secure. Weave in ends.

Ear Flap Tassels
:
Make tassels for the two ear flaps as follows:


-Cut 7 strands of yarn measuring 26" for each tassel (14 strands total)
-Using a spare crochet hook insert the hook at the bottom of flap from front to back.
-Holding 7 strands of yarn together fold them in half making a loop and wrap loop around the end of the hook.
-Pull loop through flap and insert strand ends through the loop, pull tight.
-Loosely braid strands and knot, pulling tight and leaving a 4-5" tail of strands at the end.

Repeat for second flap.


Top Tassel:

-Cut 12 strands of yarn measuring 23" for the top tassel
-Secure to the top of the hat as you did with the flap tassels
-
Loosely braid strands and knot, pulling tight and leaving a 3" tail of strands at the end.

7.16.2008

... easier doesn't always equate to better.

Last night Samantha had one of the worst low blood sugars she had in the past 6 years of her life with diabetes. After the shaking and nausea subsided and she was able to see and talk again, she looked up at me, all curled up on the couch with her tear streaked face, and said in the most grown up of ways, "Wow, that low was tough."

I told her how sorry I was and that I wished she didn't have to go through this and I was all ready to feel sorry for the both of us and she said, "No mom, that's okay I am glad I have diabetes." This shocked me! I said, "what do you mean you're glad?" She explained it to me and said that yeah, life would be easier without it, but easier doesn't always equate to better. It is like the Frost poem (that she learned about his year in class--thank you Mrs. Wyman) , The Road not Taken, in which those things that require more work and more challenge often end up with the sweeter reward.

She works harder than most of her non-diabetic peers at achieving (not necessarily in class, or in sports, but in life). Sometimes she exceeds everyone's expectations and other times she falls short, but because of the sheer effort and backbone required to make it through each day with a positive outlook, she is more ready for the challenges that she will ultimately face in life. Basically, she knows that she would love to live a carefree day without D. But, she also knows that living with it for as long as she has has changed her for the better. She didn't choose to take the road less traveled, that choice was made for her. But she has chosen how she views her journey down that road and I could not be prouder.

The Road Not Taken
Robert Frost

Two roads diverged in a yellow wood,
And sorry I could not travel both
And be one traveler, long I stood
And looked down one as far as I could
To where it bent in the undergrowth;

Then took the other, as just as fair,
And having perhaps the better claim,
Because it was grassy and wanted wear;
Though as for that the passing there
Had worn them really about the same,

And both that morning equally lay
In leaves no step had trodden black.
Oh, I kept the first for another day!
Yet knowing how way leads on to way,
I doubted if I should ever come back.

I shall be telling this with a sigh
Somewhere ages and ages hence:
Two roads diverged in a wood, and I—
I took the one less traveled by,
And that has made all the difference.

6.29.2008

"... a jaw-grind, disposistion to a panic attack"

Last night I had a panic attack. It sucked. Like, a lot.

Samantha left for Diabetes Camp today. She also went last year and it was her first experience being away from either me or her dad for an extended period of time since she was diagnosed. Last year was hard. I was excited for her, but it was really, really scary for me. In advance I mapped out an activities schedule for me to follow for the whole week she was away. I knew I'd need to be kept busy or I would go insane wondering if that night was the night she had wandered off into the woods with a low blood sugar. I made it through the week and when I picked her up she was like a new person. She was confident, happy, excited to see me and tell me all about her adventures. She was alive! She did not wander off into the woods and go low, he actually stayed pretty darn high most of the time. But she survived and so did I.

So this year I felt really good about camp (at least I thought I did). I've been getting Samantha all ready to go ... shopping, packing, filling out paperwork. I was so happy to see how excited she was to go back this year! I felt ready for it. I felt prepared to handle an entire week on my own with no BG tests, no bolusing or carb counting, no calls from school asking how to treat a low. I felt ready, really ready. I was sooo wrong.

Last night I could not fall asleep. I was tired but my heart was racing, my head was swimming, I felt out of breath. I stayed up watching a movie on IFC and finally went to bed at 1 am. I tossed and turned for over an hour trying to fall asleep. I finally did but was awakened only a short time later as I sat bolt upright in bed sucking in air, sweating, feeling like my heart was going to beat out of my chest, grasping at my husband with a feeling of doom. I thought I was dying. It took a few minutes for me to realize what was happening and when I did I tried to just relax and ride it out. I finally fell back asleep around 3 am only to wake up four hours later knowing I wasn't quite as ready for camp as I originally thought. When I fell out of bed this morning I felt like all the life had been sucked out of me. I had chest pains, I felt awful. Fortunately I had a little bit of Klonopin on hand. I took 1/4 of a pill and I cannot even tell you how much it helped. I felt functional again.

So I dropped my kid off at camp with a smile on my face. I didn't cry or feel like I was falling apart inside. It might have all been due to that wonderful little quarter of a pill, but I sucked it up and got through the day and my daughter was never the wiser.

I am thinking of Samantha tonight and wondering what she has done today. I am hoping she has a bedtime BG of 180 and will be a perfect 150 at the 2 am test. I feel so lucky to know that she is in good hands and that she will be taken care of while away from home. But I still worry. I think I've come to realize that no matter how many times she goes away on her own, I will always worry. I will never truly be as ready as I think I am. Maybe one day I won't need to pop an anti-anxiety med to get past it. I hope so.